I choose to fistfight with my demon mind.

& free pep talks for Valentine's Day

Wow, I had a tiny dip of depression. I recalibrated and am feeling better, but did you ever just have the “can’t shake it off” feeling? I am not sure what I am feeling but my mind was doing that thing where it questioned me about my creativity, my worth or about what actually I'm doing in the world. And for me this can be debilitating, and I have to constantly remind myself (just like I'd remind anyone else) that I'm a special fucking gem.

But I don't know what I'm doing in the big sense of things currently. Wait, is this what happens right before some growth, or a new way of thinking occurs?
Yes, I think so.

Historically, I don't let myself stay in that mindset very long because I have learned that I really don’t trust myself if I listen to my mind whisper lies like:

you're not creative

everyone else is doing better than you

your well is empty

you are nothing

I choose to fistfight with my demon mind.

Here are a few things that help me:

1. JUICE YR HEART any ways you can bbs. Who else has something to add to this list? We need each other. I don’t need TikTok. I need you.

2. This sorta juvenile looking feelings page can be a really useful “lookback” of your week. Leave it on your table or tape it to the bottom of your laptop or leave it in the bathroom.

   

3. Scream. I seriously do open my window or front door and yell out all my worries from time to time. (empty car parks too) It helps. Who cares what people think. Really.

Also, look how cute the tiny pen is:

PEP Talks: let me know if you need one. Reply to this post. Or if you bought a zine, you have the hotline number. Leave a message. I got you, bbs.

ilysm

-Amy