when you hold back you can miss things
i have been struggling with buying too many convenience items off ye old amazon when really i wanna spend my money locally and thoughtfully but i am a baddie
anyways i take a lot of stuff back this past year to the ups store and i always see the same kid i mean either i shop a lot or all he does is work but monday when i was leaving i just said
hey
i think you work all the time
i hope you’re doing ok
and to see his face soften and disengage from robotic behavior his hands all full of papers and plastic to see him smile directly in my face like a luminous bolt of sunshine it was a magic
and he’s just a kid and works so hard and i hope that he is happy
i hope he spends his money on good things that bring him joy
i imagine he takes really good care of his car
like it is neat as a pin and fast too
that he plays video games with those headphones on
that he is in love and can dance
that he knows all the words to all the good songs on the radio
idk
i wanna tell all the strangers in the world how beautiful they are
how i’m really looking at them
how i see them
i want to tell my people how i really see them
that i’m paying attention
i want to say things that matter instead of bullshit that doesn’t
anyways he smiled because i didn’t hold back
all the things i didn’t tell other people
all this
whole long life
i wanna tell
you
I don’t know why but I think this message is for one of you.
Practice “no holdbacks” today.
xo
amy
your words are a drug