And love dares you

sweet Target girl saves another soul

I was standing in Target at the self-checkout machine on 8/1/22 at 8 am holding sunscreen (omg I am using retinol now and the sun is mean) and some dude shower gel that Blaise had to have to round out his fully professional 15-year-old boy gym bag. Suddenly I felt icky soap on my fingers and the instant smell of teen boy Axe spray surrounded me. It was leaking and I just wanted to cry. I sometimes feel like my life is scheduled to the minute lately and I was just trying to go to the gym for myself and then to WORK. Anyhow, this wonderfully joyful looking young lady comes up to me and asks me how I am. I was in a mask and kind of grumble-growling maybe.

I told her I was meh.

She then starts to talk to me about how maybe we should take this month as a new month. Last month was bad she said. Don’t we know it… She talked about how we were at the end of summer, and we should be soaking it all up and she spoke to me like it was us against the world. Like she was holding space for me. Like her and I were gonna go off to the lake and then to some rooftop bar and maybe we would eat al fresco lunch together somewhere in crop tops. I was transfixed. She talked about how we don’t know what is coming. Don’t we know it…